when you need to begin again

how do we begin lisa jo baker writing prompt christian women

I wish I had a reset button. 

Where the flick of a finger could change my circumstances. My heart. Our world.

I fall into this trap of believing that pulling out a new sheet of paper and starting fresh has to be a grand, momentous gesture. That to begin again, I have to have it all together.

Well, that’s a big lie, because I’ll never have it all together. Thankfully for me, and for you, we don’t have to be perfect to begin.

After being out of town for a week, we came home to a messy house. Walking through the front door to shoes on the floor and crumbs on the counter is just one of those things that gives me a few extra gray hairs. I sat down on our giant luggage full of clothes waiting to be put away and felt paralyzed by the tasks ahead.

And, like he does, God talked a little sense into me. Like, Hey, Kayla, you have a house. You have things to fill it with. You have two beautiful children. You have two able hands and you have a clear mind. You have an amazing husband. You have more than most. Roll up your sleeves and do something.

Getting our house back in livable conditions isn’t a huge example of starting over, no, not at all, but it’s one of those daily grind things that add up and obscure my view from the bigger story God is writing.

Beginning is a deep breath and a few shirts sorted and a counter wiped clean.

Beginning isn’t knowing the end, or even having a map to get me there. It’s a small step and reliance on a guide that never leads me down the wrong path, a Spirit that gently nudges me, even when the road is bumpy and dimly lit.

Maybe we’ve forgotten, but a lot of us know that. But knowledge doesn’t always translate with doing.

How do we really begin?

Maybe we can start with this from Psalm 51: Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.

I wrote this morning from Lisa Jo Baker’s “begin” five-minute writing Friday morning prompt. You can see how other ladies interpreted the prompt here.

40 thoughts on “when you need to begin again

  1. Kayla, I love the aesthetic of your blog and your tag line.It is a good reminder that we “have more than most.” Sometimes it seems that the daily “small” things are the hardest to begin again with. Great perspective.

    Stopping by from Five Minute Friday.

  2. I think getting things done in every day life IS a beginning of sorts. It allows things to move on and happen.

  3. You have to tell yourself that you don’t live in a museum – you LIVE in a house. And it’s okay to have it look that way! I don’t subscribe to the religious thought process at all, but find comfort in those around me and meditation.

    1. I had lunch with a wise man yesterday. Kayla you may know him.
      He made a comment about how, even if we knew the day all things would end we would still need to just keep doing what we need to do to everyday.
      I found it profound when he said it and I find it more so after reading your blog today. Great love friend!

      1. Well you know us, we are quite the profound duo. 😉 But seriously, thanks for reading + for your well of encouragement!

  4. That’s a great way to put things into perspective! I usually go nuts coming into a messy house after vacation. I will rethink that attitude the next time though!

  5. Each day is a new beginning. (And today is a new month!) I tend to treat each day as a beginning so I don’t feel so bogged down.

  6. Every beginning starts with a single step. I begin by taking that step. I never look across the treacherous territory I have to pass through. I simply look directly in front of me, and I take a step. Then I take another step. Before I know it, I’m where I want to be.

  7. Coming home to a messy house is always stressful. I have learned to think of it in perspective though, at least I have enough things to make a mess!

  8. I love Psalm 51! I try to “renew” daily! Whether it’s with a grudge I had about my husband yesterday, or maybe I didn’t read the bible, or prayed a little longer! Every day is a new day and another chance to make it better/get it right! Great post!

  9. I love that you said

    “…but it’s one of those daily grind things that add up and obscure my view from the bigger story God is writing.”

    I can so relate. It is always those little things, but I guess its because its those little things that make up our lives. I heard one author name “mastering the mundane”. Ha! I am so not there yet, but moving forward anyway. Thank you for sharing.

    P.S. No joke, as I was writing this the song “Little Things” by India Arie came on. Apparently, according to Miss Arie, it is also the little things that bring us the most joy and delight.

  10. My mantra is, I can always start over. The day, the diet, whatever it is, I can’t focus on what is behind me, I have to figure out the positive way to go forward!

  11. That’s one of my favorite verses! And yes, that stuff will sort itself out, you do have a lot to be thankful for. Enjoy that for the moment.

  12. This is exactly what I needed to see today! I’ve got a ton of cleaning to do but I am so fortunate that I have a house/clothes/dishes/etc to clean and that I have an incredible family to share it all with. Life’s not perfect, but it’s definitely amazing and something to be thankful for!

  13. This is a good reminder that we’ve got a lot to really be thankful for, and that doing everyday tasks shouldn’t be a burden. Rather they should be a joy, for many reasons. Thank you for sharing!

  14. Every day is a challenge for me for so many reasons. So, when the eve hits and I am pondering my day, I always tell myself tomorrow is a new start. And when I get up, I try all over again because its a new beginning.

  15. No matter how hard I try, I can never seem to keep the house clean up until we leave it for a trip!

    I love that “beginning” or starting over can be small; it means we can do it any time,, anywhere, and never have to wait until Monday:-).

  16. The thing I like most about this post is the idea of re-creating a clean heart. While we can not go back to the beginning on most things, we can always recreate a clean heart.

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